When I first began my spiritual/metaphysical path, I was of the impression that, once I began working with Spirit, I would get rewards, and life would become easier. The truth is, it became harder. The reason for this? There are many reasons. I did not come to the awareness until many years later, but basically, before one can get the rewards, one has to work through any karma which is outstanding and repay any karma which is due. One cannot move on and work with Spirit while debt is due. It is as simple as that. In the beginning, I found that many people did not like me. I am not surprised as in a past life I had hurt and caused a lot of problems for a lot of people. In this life I had tried so hard to be the ideal person but, of course, I had all of my past-life issues which needed to be ironed out.
Terrible things happened to me, from people being quite nasty (I was nasty in past lives) to people ripping me off money-wise, or starting to work with me then leaving me to “carry the can” so to speak. I did not realize the onslaught of past-life energy I needed to repay or experience. Just because I was working with Maitreya did not mean I was devoid of these experiences.
It was actually after I merged with his energy that things got a lot worse, and they did not finish until I did the UN talk to a metaphysical group in 1999. It was seven hard years of learning, repaying past debts, and hard lessons about fear and trust. Looking back, I really never knew it was happening, but it was and, by the time I realized it was like this and that I was working on past-life issues, it was too late. Years had gone by and I could not go back!