Going Back in Time – Continued

The reason I say “whatever love is,” is because nobody can really define love. For women it is romantic, poetic, and a fairy tale. Very few men – perhaps 80% of men – really do not “love.” Men are designed to procreate, and for them the lovey dovey of “love” is sometimes non-existent. They just need to release, and love for them is not important. What is important is the release, and many men will use women to get that release. Women, of course, love the touching, holding, kissing etc. and do not realize that often the man they are with does not feel the same. Some men will say anything to get that release.

Neither Alan nor I are under the influence of whatever love is. We have a great personal friendship – an intimate relationship – but there is also an energy between the two of us which holds us together. Alan is the most wonderful, caring man I could ever wish for. My ex-husband was a caring man, but his heart was closed off, and it was purely a business relationship with occasional personal intimacy included. Although I had a lot of past-life energy to work out with Alan, it never took away that special feeling we have together. He is the most wonderful husband – attentive, caring, affectionate, and understanding. More than anything, he understands the work I do and has joined with me in it. I have a friend, brother, and lover all rolled into one, and sometimes even someone to advise me because I do not always have Maitreya near me to talk to about things, and it helps to be able to share with someone one’s ambitions and ideas. Astrologically also we are destined to be together. I believe Spirit saved the best until last, but a friend of mine said it is because Margaret has grown up and does not waste energy any more on mundane emotional issues. Whatever it is it works, and I know deep within myself that there is no other husband or other man for me in my life.


Fairy Tales – Continued

So what of Alan? Well they (those in Spirit) did save the best for last. I do have a wonderful husband – that is, of course (LOL), until we have a few words, and then my Self persuades me I do not! However, he has come to the earth plane to help me with the work I have to do. Do we have a “romantic” marriage? We have a close and warm relationship 99% of the time. I think it is good because very few married people have a relationship which is 100% perfect. I could not wish for a better partner. He is kind, helpful, generous, understanding, and more than anything, he can live with me because I am not the easiest of people to live with. Alan never had the illusion of a relationship. He is a man; he cannot experience that. However, we are great companions, friends, and yes, lovers. I feel complete with him 99% of the time. But there is that 1% which the Self really makes a great deal of.

I have actually thought of writing a few fairy-tale books myself, but with a different outcome – perhaps funny books which, through humor, will make people see the illusion of the fairy tale world. The only drawback is that I do not have the time to write them. Alan told me when he came into my life that he would be the last man who came into my life, and I believe what he said. However, there is no illusion, no expectation.

For those of you in fairy-tale land; who still want to believe in that, good on you – do not change. One day though, perhaps in this illusion, the bubble will burst and you will have an “aha” moment. I do hope you do and, if you wear glasses you may not need them anymore, for the metaphysical reason for eye problems and wearing glasses is not wanting to see things in your life. Alan still wears glasses, but all of a sudden his left eye does not want to take the contact lens he wears each day. I watch him struggling to put it in and I do wonder if it is trying to tell him he does not need eye support any more. Perhaps one day we will find out!