During the last few weeks, I have had a lot of (may I say) “winging” e-mails from various people around the world. You know, the kind of e-mail which says: “Why me?” “Woe is me!” “Why am I suffering like this?” – and other such questions. These are from spiritual people, some of whom have taken my courses and should know why they are going through what they are. If I had known what I would go through once I opened the door to metaphysics, I would honestly never have opened the door. But I did, and it has been a plodding path ever since. The thing is that I had nobody to help me. My teachers disappeared over a two year period, and I was then on my own. Of course, I had Maitreya, my teacher from the other side of the veil in what we call “Spirit,” but in the beginning I found it hard to understand what he wanted of me.
First, and foremost, we need to remember that all of our so-called suffering is not suffering, but a way for us to clear away old energy. I would have never have thought that I would put myself through some of the things I did, but I did. I personally created it, and it was the only way I could get rid of the abject fear I had and learn valuable lessons. Once we come to accept that we are the creators of our own reality – that we alone have created what we are going through for our own good – and that those who are hurting us are actually helping us, then we can actually see – either immediately or later – where they are helping us.
I remember leaving my dream home (after only two years in the house) and having to move to another state in Australia. My then-husband conveniently went “within” and left me to carry the burden of the responsibility of a recession. I asked God, “Why?” I was not even metaphysical then, but it seemed so unfair. Yet, it was that move that opened up the door to my metaphysical future.