Going Back in Time – Continued

I believe that the energy known as God put us on this earth plane to be together in some way, not necessarily in marriage, for marriage – I believe – is man-made. It is a choice many make. I even made it. For some it is the same-sex partner, but it is nice to share our lives with someone. Most of us long for that “special one,” and some of us find that person, but we are all meant to be together with someone. We do not understand each other though, and only when we understand that we are all different – can function as different yet still be together – can we really be happy with someone else.

In the beginning, Alan could not understand why I did not want to do what he wanted to do at times and why I did things differently, for example, why I did not like the foods he liked. Like me, he had to learn that we are all different, and to be different does not mean that we are weird or crazy in any way. We are different. As one person said to me the other day, “Men think through their penis,” and this is true; men are designed that way. After being a man for a day (written about in a previous blog), I understand exactly where a man is coming from. Women want the princess gown, the prince charming, the kisses, cuddles, affection, and the fairy tale! I still like to be kissed and cuddled by Alan. For him it is something he does not crave, but he knows it pleases me. It is a part of who I am, and he tries very hard to please me and do that function even if in his makeup it is not the same feeling as I have. He enjoys it, but it is not an in-built need like it is with me and most women.

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Fairy Tales – Continued

Since my childhood many illusions have been broken, and each one of them has changed me in some way. Maitreya, my teacher, has broken every illusion I had about life, and do you know what? I am glad he did because, as he did so, I found not only my eyes becoming better, but my life as well. There is no more illusion in my life, and neither are their any more glasses.

A few weeks ago my grandchildren came to stay with me from Australia. My granddaughter is 5 and I found myself buying her a fairy-tale book with a story in it about Prince Charming. I could not believe I had done it, but I did. Not only that, I had given it to her and she was reading it! I was very shocked at myself because I was putting her on the same path I had been put on! I made a mental note to make sure in the future that I do not do that again – either with her or my other granddaughters who will be visiting in August. I know they already live in a fairy-tale world because my oldest granddaughter has been reading fairy-tale books and watching DVD’s. My four-year-old granddaughter has been doing the same for several years. I cannot stop them either. I am not their mother, but I can make sure I do not enable them, and then they have the disappointment I experienced. I felt like taking all of the books which portray fairy princesses and Prince Charmings’ out of the children’s room at our center, but my teacher once again came in and informed me that I could not do that. It would interfere with their free will because the books were already printed and available. They, like me, have to find out the truth for themselves and I can see what he meant.

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Toward the end of this marriage I had decided there is no Knight in Shining Armor or Prince Charming. I was going to stay single! Little did I know that the Universe was going to send me another candidate. My present and last husband (and I say this with conviction) then came into my life. I needed someone to help me with my work with Maitreya. The Universe sent him to help. We have a lot in common and our temperaments are very similar. However, there were no rose colored glasses or ideas of romance for me this time. I liked him a lot, and we got on so very well together. He made me laugh – something I needed to learn – and he seemed to genuinely care about me. I also genuinely liked him. But love? What is love? Neither of us could define it.

It did not matter; we were having fun together. We had our bad days and our good days. On the bad days I was not going to stay with him; on the good days I felt that God had saved the best for last. It was a place of comfort for me, and he soon showed me that he felt the same as I did about the work we were doing.

Astrologically we are very compatible, but I am under no illusion this time and, as such, I am detached from the emotion. One day I stopped wearing my eyeglasses – whether by accident or deliberately I cannot remember – but as the days passed I no longer needed them. I could see very clearly where I could not see before. I never wore them again and still do not wear glasses. Almost six years have gone by, and I have seen more clearly every year. I believe it is because I am no longer in illusion. I don’t miss them either. It seems strange to even imagine that I wore glasses for so many years. My early books show me on the cover wearing glasses, but no more. I have seen through the illusion.

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When husband number two came in, it was a business relationship. I had become metaphysical by this stage, and there was a strong past life component in this relationship. He told me that, when he had got me to where I needed to go, he would leave me, but once again, I fell in love. I thought he was everything I needed in a man. The fact that he never loved me did not bother me; my Prince Charming had come in again. Someone told us we were twin souls and that made it all the more romantic – that is until Maitreya, my Spirit teacher, told me there is no such thing as a twin soul, just souls who came into your life to assist you to grow. The fairy-tale bubble my mother had created was very quickly disintegrating. I did not want to see this, of course. I refused to see that it was all a sham and there is no Prince Charming or Knight in Shining Armor.

I had worn glasses since I was 16 years old, my eyesight had got worse over the years, but I never connected it with not wanting to see the truth in that my marriage was not what I thought it would be. My second husband was very metaphysical. Were we not meant to be together? Was this not a destined relationship? These were all answers I gave myself when the questions about us came up.

The last four years of my marriage this time around were spent with my teacher bringing a situation into my life to force me to see that it was not only not meant to be but also that it was over. Not only that, but the karma which was what we had come back to address was over also. The last four years of my marriage were spent in my hoping he would change (we women are very stubborn at times). Despite being shown by those in another dimension that it was over, I would not lie down! One year before it ended I finally had the “aha” moment and realized it was over.

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I cannot tell you the reaction when I told my mother that I could not stand him. He brought me flowers and sent cards and love letters. My mother could not understand why I reacted the way I did. Alan would say there was no chemistry, and there was not. However, he could not get a girlfriend normally; he was shy and, as I said, very posh. We talked very “common.” I do not know what would have happened if I had met his parents but, of course, all my mother could see was “Lady Margaret,” the Lord’s wife.

As I was growing up she filled my ears with tales of princes and princesses who met, married, and were happy ever after. I thought I would be this way, but very soon I realized it was not to be this way. Every boy who came into my life I saw as my “Prince Charming,” but none of them acted like Prince Charming. I only had 3 boyfriends until I was 21, and they all treated me in a way that was certainly not charming. I, of course, allowed them to do this. There was no such thing over 40 years ago as women’s liberation set in motion. It had only just started, and a lot of women were afraid to burn their bras!

Finally I met my first husband. He was everything I could ask for in a Knight in Shining Armor or Prince Charming. He stayed that way for a few years until he changed. Then I changed, and our marriage began to tarnish – and then rust! We stayed together though, mainly for the children. I still hoped for my Prince Charming. I came to realize that men are different from women. Women want romance and kisses and the whole fairy tale thing, men want just one thing, to procreate and to have someone to take care of them. Of course, some are romantic and can give women the fairy-tale experience, but most cannot.

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