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Working for Spirit – Continued

Many people entering the metaphysical realm or path seem to think that everything is going to be roses and only good things will happen to them. It could not be further from the truth. As things begin to unfold – such as health issues and the repayment of karma – many people walk away, not able to believe that Spirit would allow this to happen, unaware that this has to happen because one cannot be blemished from the past going into the future. Another belief is the fact that we see ourselves as good people in this incarnation. Why are we going through this? Why are we suffering? Why is Spirit allowing this to happen? What have I done to deserve this?

Of course, it is all past-life related or from prior experiences in this life, but our Self cannot see this. It is hurting big time and it does not like what is happening. At the same time, it knows that every time we let go of something from the past, it no longer has any power because the Self lives in the past all of the time, hanging on to the pain and suffering. It enjoys playing the victim and the martyr. It gets so much attention from doing so. Early on in life it realizes how much sympathy one can get from being sick and playing the victim/martyr.

All of those years as I was releasing all the issues from my past, my Self fought my letting go by bringing in fear, doubt, insecurity – all of which were not only a part of my life lessons in this lifetime to free myself from, but they also held me back metaphysically. I cannot tell you how many times it told me to get out of metaphysics and go back to the life I knew before (which to the Self was the comfort zone).

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Working for Spirit

When I first began my spiritual/metaphysical path, I was of the impression that, once I began working with Spirit, I would get rewards, and life would become easier. The truth is, it became harder. The reason for this? There are many reasons. I did not come to the awareness until many years later, but basically, before one can get the rewards, one has to work through any karma which is outstanding and repay any karma which is due. One cannot move on and work with Spirit while debt is due. It is as simple as that. In the beginning, I found that many people did not like me. I am not surprised as in a past life I had hurt and caused a lot of problems for a lot of people. In this life I had tried so hard to be the ideal person but, of course, I had all of my past-life issues which needed to be ironed out.

Terrible things happened to me, from people being quite nasty (I was nasty in past lives) to people ripping me off money-wise, or starting to work with me then leaving me to “carry the can” so to speak. I did not realize the onslaught of past-life energy I needed to repay or experience. Just because I was working with Maitreya did not mean I was devoid of these experiences.

It was actually after I merged with his energy that things got a lot worse, and they did not finish until I did the UN talk to a metaphysical group in 1999. It was seven hard years of learning, repaying past debts, and hard lessons about fear and trust. Looking back, I really never knew it was happening, but it was and, by the time I realized it was like this and that I was working on past-life issues, it was too late. Years had gone by and I could not go back!

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Disasters – Continued

Another thing we do not realize is the fact that, if we leave the earth plane in death, we go home to our spiritual home (our actual home). This earth plane is just a schoolroom where we learn our lessons and grow as a soul. We cannot see that everyone who comes into our life is a mirror to force us to look at things we cannot see in ourselves but can see in others. Maitreya told me last year that, now I have raised my vibration to the level I have, I can now lose the weight I have carried for the whole of my metaphysical career. I had needed the weight for my development and work, and it had served me well.

It also served the Self well, but now I do not need it. I had come to understand the Self and I thought it no longer had reign over me. That is until I tried to lose it. The Self fought back with all it could muster, putting fear into me about losing weight! I have always had a fear of being attractive and now the Self brought that fear up. It came from a past life, was no longer relevant, and I thought I had dealt with it – that is until the Self began to resurrect it. There were other issues such as the sweet things the Self liked, the cake (which I had started to dislike in my Higher Self), the candy, etc. It was not giving up without a fight. Then the Higher Self took over and began putting people next to me who carried weight. Everywhere I went they were there, mirrors to my own excess weight, and I began to see myself as I was. Of course, I was a Goddess and exuded such energy, but I knew I did not need the weight to keep me this way. I realized that I could be a Goddess and an amazing energy even without the weight.

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Disasters – Continued

It was the same with the recession move. I had a beautiful house out in the country – we had chickens, a goat, a dog and an acre of land. It was my dream home (note to Self: do not attach to dream home) and we spent some money on it to make it even nicer. The fact that a voice from behind me had told me not to take on anything other than the mortgage when we moved into it went above my then-husband’s ears. He leased a car and then, when the recession came, we could not afford to pay both that and the mortgage. Was I not told that? The thing is, he would not listen, and so the inevitable happened. We could not manage financially and ended up walking away from the house.

Of course, this was designed to help me move into the metaphysical world and it did just that, but the change that came with it and what I had to go through was so hard that I am surprised I survived it. I did, even though I had to cope with everything alone due to my then-husband having a nervous breakdown, leaving me to cope all on my own. I became a lot stronger and, of course, it did what it was meant to do. A year later, it led me to the beginning of my metaphysical path. My Self, of course, blamed my husband and his lease of the car (I was not aware then of the fact that I am responsible for my own reality). My Self hated living in the small, cramped apartment we had to rent. It did not like having only one dress and having to wash it every night before I could wear it the next day, often hanging it on the line all night and wearing it damp until the sun dried it the next day. It never stopped moaning and made me so depressed that I almost took my own life. Such is the power of the Self!

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Disasters – Continued

I lived in New Zealand for 8 years and I loved it there. Why? Because it was like going back in time. Shops closed at 1pm in most towns at that time. For me it was like living back in England. It was “sleepy hollow” to me, a place where time never moved or much change took place. It was ideal for my personality of not wanting change. I plodded along each day. I worked hard, but it was the same routine each day. My Self loved routine. I would go back to Australia to visit family and friends, and so much change had taken place in my absence that it was very visible, but then I went back to New Zealand, back to sleepy hollow and the same old routine.

I also visited Japan three times and each time I became aware of the way the Japanese people were stuck in their ways – to the old way of living. Tokyo was very modern and populated by a lot of younger people, but as I traveled out of Tokyo I found so much fear – fear of change and fear of anything new – especially from the older generation.

I had a student who loved her metaphysical studies, but her family was in such fear of these practices that they forbade her to study them. Of course she did, but not with me. She had to study alone through books. Here was a brilliant healer, a channel, a beautiful soul who was not allowed to change and incorporate new ideas because her family was so into the old ways and feared losing those old ways and moving into the new. It was the same with the majority of more mature people in Japan.

I watched the earthquake events last week and could only hope and pray that my old student is OK, as she lives near a nuclear reactor on the coast, right on the sea. After this disaster, I also wondered if her family will still try to live in the past. I don’t think I will ever know.

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