I have often written about my Self in this blog and the battle I had with it. As I write this blog I am beginning to realize just how much of my Higher Self was there and how it did override the Self a lot of the time when it came time to doing things – such as the travel to Palmerston North. It has been an awakening for me to find that out.
Working for the Masters is not easy because very rarely do we have enough discipline in our lives and so we have to learn how to have discipline which, of course, the Self part of us does not like. But we also have to be prepared to do things at the last minute. Often Alan and I are not told about what we are to do work-wise until the last minute. Why is this? It is because if we knew beforehand, our Self would do all it could to sabotage us. It is as simple as that!
Having trust and faith is huge. It is so hard to fight the fear because we are not used to that. For me, the 1982 recession in Australia helped greatly because often I did not know when I would buy groceries as there was a bill to pay and it was a toss-up between the bill and food. My cupboards were always bare but, at the end of the week, I always had the money for food. I would have only enough for the basic groceries, but it would be there. I might have to sell something in a garage sale, but I would always manifest the money for what we needed. I put it down to not worrying about it or where it would come from. I remember one Christmas nobody knowing about our financial situation except a neighbor and, although she swore it was not her, I believe she told a charity about us because they left a gift basket of Christmas produce on our doorstep.