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Working for Spirit – Continued

Once one has paid back the karma and dealt with the debts, then the path becomes a lot clearer and easier! As I stated earlier in this blog, Spirit will work with us while we are working through this, but they cannot help us to do it. Usually they are there to help with intuition and in giving us what we need to help our clients, but they have to let us work out our own stuff for ourselves. Only when they see us having problems will they come in through a third party and help us.

In my case it was my friend, Jenny, who would give me the answers, but only after I was exhausted in trying to find the answers myself. I think also they leave us alone to try and find the answers because it tests us in whether the answers come from our Self or our Higher Self. I say to my students that, if you open the door to metaphysics, then be prepared to open up a can of worms! It really is a long hard road, but the reward at the end is worth it. And what is that reward? Never to have to come back to the earth plane again! If we can do that, it is worth everything we go through on that path.

During my 14 years of working at fighting my fears and paying back karma, I was always taken care of financially by Spirit. I never wanted for anything I needed financially and, although it was often given at the last minute, what I needed would always be there. After the UN talk, finances flowed a lot easier (and also came in huge sums), which enabled me to do Maitreya’s work without worry or concern of how I was going to do it. As I raised my vibration, it became easier financially.

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Working for Spirit – Continued

Many people entering the metaphysical realm or path seem to think that everything is going to be roses and only good things will happen to them. It could not be further from the truth. As things begin to unfold – such as health issues and the repayment of karma – many people walk away, not able to believe that Spirit would allow this to happen, unaware that this has to happen because one cannot be blemished from the past going into the future. Another belief is the fact that we see ourselves as good people in this incarnation. Why are we going through this? Why are we suffering? Why is Spirit allowing this to happen? What have I done to deserve this?

Of course, it is all past-life related or from prior experiences in this life, but our Self cannot see this. It is hurting big time and it does not like what is happening. At the same time, it knows that every time we let go of something from the past, it no longer has any power because the Self lives in the past all of the time, hanging on to the pain and suffering. It enjoys playing the victim and the martyr. It gets so much attention from doing so. Early on in life it realizes how much sympathy one can get from being sick and playing the victim/martyr.

All of those years as I was releasing all the issues from my past, my Self fought my letting go by bringing in fear, doubt, insecurity – all of which were not only a part of my life lessons in this lifetime to free myself from, but they also held me back metaphysically. I cannot tell you how many times it told me to get out of metaphysics and go back to the life I knew before (which to the Self was the comfort zone).

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Working for Spirit – Continued

After 1999, things got a lot better for me – in fact, so much better that I could not believe it, but I had spent all those prior years working through karma, health issues, and bringing an incredible amount of emotion to the surface. A lot of the health issues evoked fear so abject that I was in terror at times. For instance, the pain in my leg started without any warning and thankfully, as the time passed, I was shown where it came from, but not before I had experienced chronic severe pain in my leg which left me wondering if I did have something such as bone cancer. Thankfully, a past-life regression removed it immediately after only one session. I had limped into the bedroom in such pain to have the past-life session and, when I was finished, the pain and everything associated with it was gone. It is almost as if, once you work for Spirit and open yourself up to metaphysics, everything from the past which has not been removed comes to the surface to be dealt with.

Thinking about it on a deeper level, it would have to be that way because those in the next world cannot work with us on a higher vibration until we remove any blocks we have put there. We cannot move forward in consciousness while we are carrying all the old energy. I also found that, as I cleared away the health issues, faced the fears, etc., I became more intuitive and sensitive. Although some things did clear up after 1999, I still had a big issue I needed to clear with the man who was to come into my life in 1994, my present husband, Alan. Had I known what I was to go through with that, I would never have agreed to even see him, never mind spend time with and marry him. If those in the next world had told me what would happen I would never have allowed it, it is as simple as that.

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Working for Spirit – Continued

It was not only the repayment of karma though, and the other issues (such as facing the fear and trusting), it was also the past-life injuries and health issues which came up. Issues would arise out of the blue which were connected to past lives. One of them was a painful left leg. The pain was so bad I thought I had bone cancer. The health problems began from the time I connected with Maitreya. There were many of them – aches and pains which came out of nowhere and at times stopped me in my tracks. I could not believe what was coming to the surface. I was lucky because, each time something did come up, I was told what it was and where it came from, but it was not easy having to cope with it – especially as I had to continue doing my work with Maitreya, which often involved traveling and spending time away. It is one thing to go through these things in the comfort of one’s own home, but to go through it in hotel rooms and having to fly around the world while experiencing it was not a pleasant thing to do.

Those years were certainly not pleasant, and were made worse by the fact that my husband at the time was also going through it and bringing past-life pain and issues with his health to the surface. It was seven years of this happening and not giving in to fear before it began to wane. After 1999, I felt strongly that I had faced the issues and, not only that, I would not face them in the future (which turned out to be right). However, at this time I had gone through 14 years of experiencing the past-life energy in all its forms. I did not take it easily either. My Self complained all the way. If I had a dollar for every time I wanted to leave and run away, I would be a very wealthy person in my own right by now.

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Working for Spirit

When I first began my spiritual/metaphysical path, I was of the impression that, once I began working with Spirit, I would get rewards, and life would become easier. The truth is, it became harder. The reason for this? There are many reasons. I did not come to the awareness until many years later, but basically, before one can get the rewards, one has to work through any karma which is outstanding and repay any karma which is due. One cannot move on and work with Spirit while debt is due. It is as simple as that. In the beginning, I found that many people did not like me. I am not surprised as in a past life I had hurt and caused a lot of problems for a lot of people. In this life I had tried so hard to be the ideal person but, of course, I had all of my past-life issues which needed to be ironed out.

Terrible things happened to me, from people being quite nasty (I was nasty in past lives) to people ripping me off money-wise, or starting to work with me then leaving me to “carry the can” so to speak. I did not realize the onslaught of past-life energy I needed to repay or experience. Just because I was working with Maitreya did not mean I was devoid of these experiences.

It was actually after I merged with his energy that things got a lot worse, and they did not finish until I did the UN talk to a metaphysical group in 1999. It was seven hard years of learning, repaying past debts, and hard lessons about fear and trust. Looking back, I really never knew it was happening, but it was and, by the time I realized it was like this and that I was working on past-life issues, it was too late. Years had gone by and I could not go back!

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