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Emotions – Continued

We are surrounded by emotions. They are on TV everyday in the shows we watch. They surround us in our families. Our world revolves on emotion. Whether it be fear, anger, jealousy, or other emotions, the Self part of us will not let go. Over the last year, I have watched my Self slowly disappear little by little. Why? Because I refused to give energy to things I used to give energy to. I used to be easily provoked, I had to justify myself with everything, and I had to have the last word. I cried at the drop of a hat, weeping sometimes hysterically as the Self made me feel sorry for myself, and I allowed the Self to do this. I often cried in silence. This made me feel like a martyr more than ever. While I was weeping, my Self would remind me that my father told me I was stupid, an idiot, a blockhead, and thickhead, which would make me weep even more. It was a vicious circle, and I could not get off of it!

As I raised my vibration and came more into the Higher Self, this part of me told me not to react, not to cry, not to give energy to it. It told me that I am worthy, beautiful, and clever – either through me or through others. The Self did not like this. It did not want to let go of anything, never mind the emotion. The Higher Self, though, had kicked in and was not giving in. As I stated, slowly and surely the Higher Self took control and weaned me off of the emotional part of me. The interesting thing is that, once I let go of the emotional part of me, I became even more intuitive! I was so amazed. I could not see it when the Self was there, but as soon as the Self disappeared, I could see it so clearly!

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Emotions – Continued

I recently watched a friend of mine go through a harrowing emotional experience and, as it always did, her Self came out in all its glory. Her response always has been to react by crying. Why would people treat her this way? Was she not a decent person? Her Self not only had a field day with her, but it really wrung out the emotions full blast. The person who had upset her was a family member, one she had been close to all of her life. The person would not speak to her and, worse than that, when she was in his presence he would not make eye contact and treated her as if she did not exist! I had told her not to cry in front of this person as this gave the person more fuel to hurt her with. She managed to stem the crying until she was alone. Then the Self came out big time and really brought her down. I told her that once the crying stopped, she should thank this person for doing what they did, for they were teaching her emotional detachment.

She was, ironically, in her 2nd Saturn return at age 59 (Saturn is in its second return at age 58 to 61½). Her life lesson is to learn detachment and, at age 59, she was finally learning how to detach from her emotions, something that prior to 59 (and in past lifetimes) she had found very difficult to do. Had she not learned her lesson now, she would have another 29 years until age 85 (if she lived that long) to learn. And if not then? She would have to come back again for another try.

I told her that she should be grateful to be learning it now and not have to come back, as each lifetime it gets harder and harder to learn. Thankfully, she understood what I was saying to her. Whether it was Maitreya’s energy or just the right time for her to learn, I do not know, but she finally felt at peace!

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Thanksgiving and Other Things – Continued

I cannot tell you how stupid I felt after realizing this situation of people moving on and myself still fuming inside. One of the issues I had was with my boyfriend when I was 21. After 5 years of courtship, he left me with my unborn daughter and would not marry me. I was so angry over it for the next 25 years that it was virtually eating away at me with terrible tinea (athlete’s foot) in my toes for years. Once I let go of the anger and the frustration, then I was shown a past life which showed me that all that had happened was meant to be and that it was nobody’s fault. For 25 years I had sat on that issue, not able to let go of it, brooding over it every now and again, sometimes on a monthly basis. What a waste of energy!

When I thought of what I could do with that energy, I could have done so much with it – manifested money, a job, a better life – but I did not. I hung on to the memories, the pain and, of course, the emotions. It evoked sympathy and sadness in the people to whom I told the story. It fed my emotional body and ate away at my soul. Now I only get tinea every once in a while. Now I go within and try to find out what is causing it, what is eating away at me. I am usually successful in doing so and then in letting it go. Now I am very blessed to have the Thanksgiving because I can forgive and bless all those in my life who have taught me through their mirroring, but also those whom I have a bee in my bonnet about. But what about the rest of the world? What do they do without a special day to say thanks?

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New Energy – Continued…..

I often have the same reaction to used houses and property. I have walked into houses which looked great from the outside only to leave once inside the front door because of the energy of the house. I will never forget over four years ago when we were looking for a building to rent for our first center in Washington. We were taken to a building which had been a medical center. It had many of the amenities we needed. However, as the realtor took us into one particular room, I felt so strongly that I was not to go into the room we were being led to. I refused to go in; I felt danger in there in some way, I could not describe it, and then the word “radiation” came into my mind. I asked the realtor if that room had been used for x-rays, and he confirmed that it had. I did not want to go in because I could feel the radiation still in the room, and also many of the emotions of the patients who had gone through there. There was fear – abject fear – and I wanted to run. I could not wait to get out of there and, ironically, four and a half years later, the offices are still vacant.

Even after a long period of time, energy is still retained. It is this energy that people experience when ghosts are around. In Dunedin, in New Zealand, there is a house built like a castle, and a respectable family lived there for many years. It had become a tourist attraction. I visited one day and, while I was in the room that had become the nursery for the children, I smelled strongly the odor of camphor, which was used in the early 1920s for healing when there was sickness. It was almost as if I were in the room when it was a nursery, and there were two, very ill children with croup in the beds in the room. I wondered at the time whether I had gone back in time, but I had not. The energy from that time was so strong that it had permeated the whole room and was still there like a photo memory. Unlike the house next door to me which evoked just feelings, this room in the Dunedin house elicited a visual presence.

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A Few Things – Continued

Over the last few years I have been able to see the effects of past-life energy and the emotions and feelings of an enormous number of people. There is no doubt in my mind the truth of Maitreya’s words that we spend 85% of our lives in past-life mode, meaning that we are acting out our lives and reacting to emotions of others and situations because of the energy left over from past lives. Consciously, we often do not know what we have inside of us until it is ready to come out, and one has to be on a certain rate of vibration/consciousness to be able to release this energy.

Someone asked me the other day about a friend of theirs who is releasing a lot of anger and frustration and who is obviously able to do so consciously/vibrationally and yet this person does not appear to be “spiritual” in any way. This is a soul who, in the past, had been able to raise their vibration, but in this life cannot recall any of that memory, and is trapped by the old energy moving through it. I have met thousands of people who have done this, and have had no recollection of being so-called “spiritual” in a past life. There will come a time – once the old energy is released – when they will start to become spiritual once again. No, they will not have to start at the beginning again. Most people like this are very spiritual in a non-spiritual way. All of their actions are that way, but they do not realize it. Some come to be tested with religion, others with fear (like me). But they all have lovely personalities and are usually very kind and tolerant of others. I have met people who channel and do not know they channel. Also healers who have the most amazing healing energy and do not use it because they do not know they have it. Only when I open them up and show them how to use it do they get the message. Even then they sometimes do not use the energy.

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