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Lessons I Have Learned – Continued

Another hard lesson I learned was that, once we begin our work for Spirit, everything is easy for us. Wrong!! So many people seem to think life is going to get so much easier because they align themselves with the spirit world, but life actually gets harder. Why? Because once you begin working with them, their energy – which is so profound – begins to work on a deep subconscious level and brings up all sorts of things to be dealt with: fears, doubts, past-life unused energy, etc.

I honestly thought I was done with my lessons, so to speak, when I began my spiritual path. I had been a Christian for my whole life. I knew the Bible and I had led a Christian life. Unfortunately I had not lived a spiritual life. It is totally different from Christian ideals. One of the lessons I had to learn with Maitreya was not to interfere in anyone else’s life unless it was karmic to do so. How would I know if it was meant to be? I would know because the person would keep coming into my life until the karma was repaid or whatever needed to be done was done.

I learned also not to react to anything on an emotional level. It was hard learning to do that because, as a society, we live on – and in – the emotional body. I learned to speak my truth quietly and clearly without fear, but with love. Most of what I had learned in Christianity I had to change belief in because Maitreya’s teachings spoke to my heart, not to tradition. I had always been frightened to say, “No.” I learned that those in the spiritual world care deeply for us and want to help us despite our not wanting to help ourselves and being in fear 24/7.

The biggest lesson I learned though was that I am not a sinner, that God loves me, and that I am a decent human being. God certainly, as one student told me, does not make junk!

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The Hardest Lessons

Life is full of lessons, but for me some have been very hard to learn. I wrote in a number of blogs about my having to learn about money. In my natal chart I have Mars, Mercury and Venus in the 2nd house of assets, finances, & money. Those planets have some serious learning for me. Mercury is telling me in this incarnation that I have to learn to ask for money. Apparently in a number of past incarnations, I have been afraid to ask for money (as in the blog about the salt crock). In the beginning of my work as a reader in this life, for a few months I was afraid to ask people for payment. It was all on a deep subconscious level about feeling worthy and good enough to earn money.

I obviously had a problem with that because I would let people leave after a reading and not ask for payment. Some of the people would come back and pay me or leave it in the letter box in an envelope, but some did not pay me and finally after a few months, as one lady left after her reading without paying, a voice from deep inside of me said; “Don’t forget to pay me!” Well, was she flustered, apologetic, and the onus was on her. She felt so terrible and of course paid me. I realized that a lot of people were not paying because they were in such a shock about the reading which had been so good; they were stunned most of the time at the accuracy of it. They walked out forgetting to pay. After that first request, I said the same words if someone did not pay, and it always made the client feel embarrassed at walking out without paying. I never felt embarrassed again.

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