Despite being with Maitreya for 15 years now, I still react in a human way. People find this very strange for they expect me to be some holy Guru who is absolutely perfect and has no problems. Well, I don’t have any problems — thanks to Maitreya teaching me how to deal with them — but I do not consider myself to be perfect in any way. I still have lots to learn, and each day is a new learning experience.
Recently I was allowed to see how much I had grown spiritually. I have always been very sensitive to criticism of any kind and, over the years, I have had my fair share of criticism in many different ways. It was always so hard not getting upset and wanting to lash out at the person doing the criticizing. Over the years, Maitreya has helped me not only to conquer my fear of criticism, but also to laugh at it; so much so that I can now look at things written about me without any feelings whatsoever. I know it is not my truth, and Maitreya has taught me that, if I can stand in front of God each night and know I am not guilty of what I am being accused of, that is the most important thing.
My recent foray into reading negative words about me was a test by spirit to see if I would react, and also to show me how far I have come. It was an amazing experience. I was not only able to read what was written, but stand detached and know it was one person’s truth and not the consensus. The same day I read the comments which had been aimed at me, I received an email thanking me for a reading which said, “Thank you in advance, Margaret, for all your help. My life has already started that major shift you spoke of. My wife listened to the tape and was touched deeply by what you gave us. You validated everything for her as well while enlightening me. It’s amazing!!! You have honed your gift to diamond brilliance. I feel honored to have met you and your husband.” This was followed by two other emails with similar comments.
Alan has a saying when talking about the work we do, and that is, “I am trying.” I think I might adopt that saying too, because it really is about “trying.” It took me 58 years of this lifetime to finally conquer my emotions over things written about me and not get angry and react. I can actually laugh at the comments made about me now. Oh, the joy at being able to do that! No more do I waste time on days and weeks of anger and frustration over what has been said or written.
I died in a past life before I could learn this lesson because I feared it. It came into my energy even more and plagued me throughout my life in that incarnation. It is a wondrous feeling to be free of it finally, and to be able to see it for what it is — one man’s truth. As Maitreya says, “Each soul has his own truth.” Yeah, I finally got it! Whew, how great to go back home and not have to learn that all over again! We had a saying many years ago in England as I was growing up. “Sticks and stones can break my bones, but words will never hurt me.” I really should have heeded it then, but I took the long road instead of the short one to learn that lesson.