I recently had to let go of someone whom I love dearly. Why did I do this? I did it because I could no longer experience watching them do what they were doing. It was very difficult making the decision to do this, but I knew it had to be done if I were to remove myself from the situation. The interesting thing is that this person enabled me to see what I could not previously see. They created the doorway for me to see what I did, and to take action on the fact that I did not want them in my life anymore.
You would no doubt say, “But why would you do this if this person helped you?” It is a good question. It is a matter of choice and of being the creator of my own reality. Since I opened the door to spiritual development, I have for many years had to let go of deep hidden stuff, emotional situations, and people. As I have grown spiritually I have come to realize my life is mine to mold. Just as a sculptor creates his statue, so I am able to create my own life and who I have in it. If a sculptor does not want to work with a particular clay, he chooses another. And so it is with my life. I am the creator of this life. I am responsible for no one except myself and, because of that, I can choose who I have in my life.
The person I am writing about, through their actions, enabled me to see a part of myself that used to be. BUT in their energy (that is, when I was around them), I became as I was then – in the past – not the person I am now. I found myself being affected by their energy and going, as some would say, into “past life mode.” I became aware that this person created fear within me which had been there since they were a child. This person also created guilt within me, For what, in this life, I do not know, but I know it is from another incarnation. It became a stronger and stronger feeling, and I no longer wanted this person in my life. I realized that, to move on, I had to leave them behind. But I also knew that it was for the other person’s learning also; they were helping me and I was helping them.
Examination of the astrology between us confirmed this. Then I had to implement it. I found myself penning an email which was full of unspoken words over the years. I spoke my truth clearly and it evoked a reply full of venom and anger. Yet I knew I had to do this. This would start within them the questioning and the change necessary in their life. I do not know whether the rift will ever be healed. I am not sure whether I want it healed unless they can change also. I do know I feel free for the first time in many years. I no longer am in fear, and I feel totally detached from the situation. I am at peace with what I have done – really at peace!