On my spiritual path, I have had some absolutely wonderful experiences. The highlight for me was when I was allowed me to be a man for one day. I cannot tell you how that changed my life in so many ways. I just woke up one morning and felt as if I had a male appendage complete with everything. It did not feel physical, but etheric (spiritual). I could certainly feel it and all the sensations it brought with it. I was used to being a woman with all my womanly feelings and all of a sudden, I was feeling completely different!
Throughout that day I was also educated by the Master about being a man – what makes a man sexual, how a man has difficulty in controlling his erection once he gets it, and how it is a force of energy that needs to go somewhere. I was shown why men, even young men, rape older women, and how some men find great difficulty in controlling that energy. In one day I experienced a myriad of emotions and feelings, and even got to experience with the same sensation the ‘tingle’ a man gets before he ejaculates. Apart from those who have had sex operations, I must the only woman in the world today who knows what a man feels when he has that feeling. At the end of that day, I was educated in being a man on all levels, and I was able to understand so much more about the males around me.
This happened to me in the early days of my spiritual work. Over the years, the experience of being a man assisted me in so many ways with my healing work and with my readings. From men who were impotent to men who were so sexual they could not control their feelings, I was able to assist them with their problems. In many cases, there was residue from past lives behind the problems. Later, after I began using astrology in my work, I have been able to see from a man’s chart whether he has a sexual problem that is either something he has chosen to experience or a past life connection with the energy.
I have to say the experience of being a man for the day was one of the most profound of my life! Not only was I educated about being a man, but I was also educated in the herbs men can take, which can assist them with their sexual energy, especially if they have lost it. After that day, I had a new found respect for men. It was like I had a special connection to them in some way because I knew what they felt and experienced sexually. I have never written about this before because the subject of sexuality and spirituality has always been very guarded. Maitreya has taught me personally and written newsletters about how important sexual energy is in our lives. Since that experience of being a man, I have watched the church come apart at the seams as priest after priest has admitted accosting their young parishioners in their churches. Church ministers and elders have also admitted having affairs out of marriage and having to leave the church because of that. I have also watched the church become so judgmental over the presence of gay men in their clergy! Maitreya has often told me that not many of us are true to ourselves, and that is because we don’t understand who we are, especially sexually.
Before I became a man for a day, I was quite a prude, to be honest. I was like everyone else who knew nothing of male sexual energy. After that experience, I realized unless we can understand that energy, we cannot in a sense assist with the problems encountered by men, who do have difficulty with their sexual energy. It is an energy. Just as electricity needs a source, so does sexual energy. It is not just the energy we need to understand, but also the feelings accompanying it. We have such a long way to go with this issue. It is interesting that of all the workshops I have taught over the years, the one on ‘sex and spirituality’ was cancelled due to lack of interest. Every other workshop has been so well attended. I thank God for the experience I was given. It has helped me enormously to understand men on all levels. I have a new respect for them, and also for the issues they have with their sexual energy. I just wish every other woman could have the experience I did; it would certainly help them to understand the men in their lives!