I have had two fears. One was swimming, which I managed to conquer partly by going into water, moving away from the sides of the pool, putting my head under water, and taking my feet off the bottom. I did not swim, but I got to it as near as possible that I could. My other fear is driving in the USA. Don’t get me wrong, I am a good driver in Australia, but in the USA everything is the other way around. So, of course, it has not been an easy change to make after driving on the left side of the road for so long, to start driving on the right.
Alan, after 20 hours of flying, can get off a plane in Australia and then drive a car there as if he has always driven on the left side of the road! I have used a variety of excuses to explain why I do not drive in the USA. One is, of course, spiritual development and being “away with the fairies” most of the time. Another was the obvious, as driving here is so different to that in Australia. In addition, I found the book of driving regulations here hard to learn. So, what has been happening is that Alan drives me where I need to go, and my friend, Jean does the same for me, too.
However, Maitreya told me I still had a fear of driving, and if I did not conquer it, I would come back for another round of existence. I was not pleased with that statement one bit! The more I thought about it, the more I could see my fear, and as another one of my friends told me: “You cannot talk about fear, and teach about letting go of fear, if you do not let go of your own!” My reaction was, I am afraid, “Bother!” and other even stronger words to that effect. However, I never did anything about it, and when Alan talked about buying a new car, I would not contribute to the conversation, but very carefully changing the conversation so that the subject was avoided. Well, I have drawn that fear into my energy.
In our garage is a car which Alan has bought for me. I now am resident in the USA, having got my green card (it is actually a white card) last week, and Alan said it was time for me to learn to drive. How can one have such fear? I pride myself on helping people with fear, and I have such success doing so, but when it comes to my own, it is a different story. So I have to walk my talk! With trepidation I have agreed to have lessons from a proper driving school. However, before I do that, I have to do a written test. I can feel the Self already!! But I am now a lot more educated in the ways of the Self than I used to be, and I also now have the Higher Self a lot stronger than it was.
I know I am going to be fine, and look forward to the day I go shopping on my own. I will keep you informed of my progress over the next month or so. It is going to be quite an adventure; the learning never ends!