I was told recently that what I am experiencing in my life at the moment is what is known as a “Saturn reward.” Every 28 to 29 years, Saturn returns to the place it was positioned in the natal chart after visiting all 12 houses of the natal chart. During its transit through the 12 houses, each of which represents an area of one’s life, many lessons are learned if one uses the energy and allows it to flow and does not fight it too much. Saturn is a scary planet because it is the planet which teaches us some hard lessons, and which disciplines us. If we do not learn the lessons, we have to await another time to do this, usually within the next 28 to 29 years or another incarnation.
In my natal chart, my Saturn is in the 10th House of my chart. This is the house of the public and of power. One of the things Saturn needed to teach me was how to use power. In past lives I had abused the power, and as such had stopped the energy from the spiritual realms flowing. My learning in this area in this life was very hard. I remember standing in 1995 in a millionaire’s office in the USA as he showed me what he had done with his life, and informed me that if I helped him with his business (which was mutual funds and the stock market) that he would pay me well, and I too would become a millionaire! It was extremely tempting to be honest, but something inside of me would not let me do it, and after I had turned him down, he made life very difficult for me, so much so that I had to leave town and move to another place to live.
I also had a terrible fear of speaking in public and being public. All of my life, my mother had tried to get me into the public arena, but I hated it because I felt embarrassed and ran away each time it happened. Saturn forced me to become public and learn how to be a public personality. Once the fear was faced, it became quite a pleasant experience. Saturn is just about ready to leave my 10th house after 28 years of transit through my chart. I have been told that I have learned all Saturn had to teach me, and so now comes the reward. One of the beautiful things about Saturn is that once you have learned the lessons and faced the fear, Saturn rewards substantially. However, the lessons do have to be learned. It never ceases to amaze me how many souls, just before their reward, would fall by the wayside because of the Self’s fear of reaching that goal!
My life at present is such that I have never been happier. I have a wonderful husband in my life, who adores me and loves me unconditionally, and I have the time now to make the choices of when and if I work. For the present time I am taking a sabbatical except for web site work. I have time for myself, and for enjoyment. I have learned the secret of manifestation, which is giving no energy to anything, and I no longer have anyone mirroring for me. I could not have got to this level of vibration without the presence of Saturn. I used to hate it, but if what I am experiencing now is the “Saturn reward” then I am so glad I learned all that Saturn taught me. I never thought I would wake in the morning thinking I have died and gone to heaven; yet I do this every day.
The best thing you can do in your life is to find out what Saturn wants you to learn. If you can do this, then you too can work through the fears and lessons Saturn wants you to learn and you also can have the reward. I was told by a very accomplished astrologer five years ago that from my birthday in 2005 I would be going into the happiest years of my life. I could never imagine it five years ago, yet each day I am aware of that happiness. As I was being tested and tried by Saturn in my life, I never thought I would ever see this day. It can be achieved and one does get the reward. Someone wrote me the other day and asked why they had to suffer in their life. I wrote back and told them that we didn’t have to suffer and we could make choices. I made the choices to face my fear. I remember that fear and all that I went through as I faced it. It was horrific. However, my thoughts on the outcome were totally unfounded. My fear was that my career would be over. In fact, my career began at that time as far as I am concerned.
As each day I create my own reality and experience the happiness I was told about, I feel so blessed to have had the Master to teach me and assist me along the way. He was a hard taskmaster at times. There were times I hated him, yes, I hated him, but I can see now what he was doing, and thank him sincerely for his guidance, advice and direction. Just know that you also can get there too; you just have to work with your Saturn energy and face your fear.