Many people have the impression that I am actually Maitreya! I suppose it is easy to believe as I do the actual channeling of the information he gives on the web site. However, I am not Maitreya. Were I so, I would not make mistakes, and I do. I would not still have lessons to learn, and I do. People find it very difficult to understand that I channel such a high energy, and yet am not perfect myself. I would hate it to be perfect. I love the challenge of the lessons I have to learn, even if my Self does not! I am in awe of the information I channel, and I cannot believe that I have been entrusted to channel it.
I am often asked about being manipulated by the Master. Many people make mention that I have written about giving up “my will.” It would not be good for the Master if I kept upsetting his plans with my ideas and thoughts; after all, he in his wisdom has far more experience than I have. However, he is not a demanding energy. When he needs something done, he always asks, “Could you do this for me?” I am more like a personal assistant to him than a channel at times. I then have the choice to do it or not. Of course, I do it, because I usually have the time, but often I may not, and then I have to inform him that I will have to do it later, or the next day. He is always so accommodating. Only if astrologically it is necessary for it to be done there and then, does he ask for that. He has said many times, “There can only be one director.” I agree wholeheartedly with this statement. There is an English saying “too many cooks spoil the broth”. In other words, with too many people directing, it will stop the flow.
It is not easy being the channel for such a high energy, taking the energy itself can be quite draining, for it is like taking 10,000 volts of electricity. Imagine doing that and holding that energy for two hours of channeling, sometimes even longer, and you can imagine how difficult it can be. It makes for many sleepless nights after sessions because I will be so full of energy!
People expect me to be something I am often not, and they are often in awe of me, perhaps because of the energy of the Master, I don’t know. But one cannot lead a normal life. Going out for dinner to friends’ houses can be difficult because everyone wants to know how you do it, how did you begin, who are you, what does it feel like? When all I want to do is to switch off and enjoy a social evening. The worst thing of all is the hate emails I receive, some of them are so bad, you wonder how people can be like that. The amazing thing is that it is usually only Christians who write them!!
The joy of working with the Master, as I call him, is so beautiful that I cannot believe I am so blessed. His energy, which is with me all day and night, is like a beautiful warm cloak around me. He knows when I need to be private, or when I need space, and always gives that to me. I have been to visit him so many times in the world of spirit; they have such fun there, unlike us who are so obsessed with work, and do not know how to have fun most of the time. The Master has said many times, “The Earth plane is so unhappy.” You know we are quite a lot of the time. I am so looking forward to my travel with him in the future, and of course to meeting many of you who will come to see him. Just know though, I am not the Master, never will be, and that HE is the one with the messages, and who does most of the work, I just channel it for him.